They're OVER!

Never in my life have I had to deal with so many incompetent people for such an extended period of time. First.. those stupid other test takers, are so freakin' unassertive, they just stand there in line while the whole world passes them by, wondering if they should move forward.

ARgh.. and secondly, I was at the Wyndham from 7:15 AM until 6:40 PM. That's fucking ridiculous. They decided to throw all 200 of us in a big room, and then hand out each section of the exam individually, and only have 2 people doing it. I must've spent at least 3 hours sitting in that room, combined, just waiting for something to get picked up or something else to be passed out. Fucking retarded.

But it's over!

My Secluded Life version.052806-060506

So this has been what's been happening. My family came on the 28th. I got my birthday present! A Casio Exilim EX-Z850 camera, its really nice, so I've been taking a lot of pictures. I took my family around Baltimore: Federal Hill, Inner Harbor, Fells Pt., etc. Anyway, so we finished packing up, made a huge mess, it was interesting having my parents and my brother living under the same roof in my tiny apartments. But yeah, lots of packing. I didn't realize how much stuff there was. The same on the 29th. Early morning on the 30th, we got the UHaul, had it all packed by 10:30, and went straight to the new place. unloaded by 1. And it was amazing. And all was well for the time. Then on the 31st we went to Medieval Times for my birthday. It was really great, and mainly cause it was a big joke and there were like 500 middle schoolers behind us yelling and screaming about the knights. It was pretty ridiculous, but it was fun, and it was my first time back at the Arundel Mills Mall since.. well.. freshman year orientation. QUite a long time... And because I started this post so long ago, I don't remember what I was going to write anymore :P But whatever. I need to get on with newer things in life.. At some point we went up to Long Island to
visit some relatives, my second cousin from HK going to high school there..

And I can't figure out how to layout pictures.. I suck at this...

Yummy

I saw this ad yesterday while on the metro in DC.. it makes me sick. On the topic of making myself sick.. all I've had to eat today is cheese and confetti cake. I should probably find something for dinner soon.

One more week til my parents are here! I have so much to pack, so much to clean, so many things to take care of... we'll see how well it all gets done. Now back to work!

And It All Begins To Fall Into Place

I'm excited for this summer. I'll have time to study, time to grow, time to concentrate on the things I need to do to make myself a better person. I have the time, energy, motivation, and means to do something about it, and I'll soon be able to at least perceive what the ideal is, if even just for a glimpse or a taste.

I'm finally done with all these pesky finals. Personality theory wasn't as bad as it could've been. Inorganic, well, that was tough. I didn't get much sleep last night. But alas, it is now summer, and I'm now a senior. I have time to get my stuff together, to leave this apartment and what it is to me, and move on. something new. Not too much will change, but it'll help me get rid of certain memories hopefully.

Maybe I'll be having some fun tonight. I've kinda avoided friends for the moment. I'm kinda at the point in those weird relatinoships, where you don't know if it should be more than what it started out as.. possibly considering something more? At least that's what I think we're at, maybe the feelings aren't being returned, but who knows.

Man, I need to shower :P I've been in the same clothes, on and off, for at least a while. My ulcers are getting slightly better, and this ice cream certainly helps. Edy's Slow Churned vaniall bean. Yum.

The Anesthetic Never Set In

its not you, it's just the freudian escape mechanism of transferrance


trying to concentrated on finals, having a really hard time


this is starting to sound like my xanga.. but i guess i have no choice since its how i'm feeling right now


don't know what i should say to him. i don't know what i want to do. i want someone to convince me that i should. is this exactly where you'd like me?


why wasn't last night any fun for me? i'd rather sleep on a couch, not even because i had a lot to drink... the people there, the whole environment, it's different. it's not like the old parties.


i've had absolutely no desire to eat as of late. i kinda forced myself to go grocery shopping today... making some soup. chicken/chana masala.. white rice. didn't really know how to deal with the masala, but just did tomatoes, garam masala, lots of garlic, onion, pepper, cumin, chili powder...